Wednesday, December 09, 2009 / 10:27 AM


Because you ruined my night.
Because today would suck for me.
Because I didn't want to wake up.
Because you fill my head.
Because I'm too chicken to say "go away".
Because I don't want to.

Agonizing, today will be.


Have a wonderfuckingful day everyone.


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Tuesday, December 08, 2009 / 10:42 PM



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Monday, December 07, 2009 / 10:17 PM

Tomorrow calls for sweat, anger... and hopefully as a result, satisfaction.
Tomorrow we run.

I felt my stomach twist hearing what I've heard.
Then it stopped.

Getting all contemplative will not bring any good, no more to an already messed up situation.

I might not feel you, but let me do.

I am but your very own personal lifeguard, with no experience of rescue or whatsoever with an ultimate goal. To try and save you.


"Would you let me know, cause' I can't read your mind" - Can you tell.


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Wednesday, December 02, 2009 / 10:18 PM

My feet are tied to a bungee rope.

Oh and how I hate it when I'm in the air for all the very wrong reasons. Bring me to the ground! I've had enough, enough of excuses, enough of reasons, enough enough enough. Patience isn't much of a virtue in this case. I want my feet back on the cold hard floor, seriously. Just when I was reaching, I'm propelled back up to confusion. Just when I thought I could focus on something a little less complicated. Badaboom.

On a brighter, brighter note. I finally got to meet babygirl who's finally free from the chains of film and shoot, for the mean time :D

Now, take a time to stare at the moon.

Goodnight.



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Monday, November 30, 2009 / 12:23 AM

You know what I think is awesome?


A smile on someone who is down when I make a fool out of myself trying to cheer them up or make their happy day happier. I know I'm not the goddess of humour, but when I do manage to spark a chuckle or two out of them with my antics, it really makes me, genuinely, warm. It's unexplainable, its like a wave of calmness I feel hearing their laughter echo in my mind. Especially when its someone I love dearly.


Talking about loved ones, I miss a lot of people.


Goodnight.



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Saturday, November 28, 2009 / 10:51 PM


Mindsets.

Having a killer stomachache! hahahahhahahahaha.


I was watching the telly yesterday when I burst out laughing about what a lady who was showing a magician visitor around her country said... the conversation went something like this.. I think


Magician: there sure is a lot of different types of food here

Lady: Yeah, theres this that this that... (blah3)

Magician: Oh what's that? (pointing to ikan bakar)

Lady: Oh thats ikan bakar... Uhmm.... in english... burnt fish.


HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHH!!!!!


siak aje.


Okay la actually I also don't know what's ikan bakar in english, i think its bbqed fish or smoked fish or something. BUT I SURE KNOW IT'S NOT BURNT FISH.


Who the hell would want to eat burnt fish.


IKAN TERBAKAR!


Ok diam aku mendak.

Goodnight.



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Wednesday, November 25, 2009 / 11:12 PM

This should be out in the open.

Ever had a hard time finding something, something important, something you need so bad. Like drugs to a junkie, like water to a fish, like the love of her child to a mother, like a cure. Well, it has hit me that we tend to search high and low for this significant thing. This thing, it might be important only to our eyes, others may perceive as something they would find in a shopping mall chosen at random, something of absent value, something normal. However, it might mean the world to some of us, mean our whole lifetime, because without it, life itself would be proven useless, and it will offer us nothing but one less reason to live one. Then you continue searching, along the way going through countless and countless of heartaches, knowing your battered self will eventually lead you to an oasis of wonders. One that would enable you to actually restart your life. Living it over again as someone new. With new intentions, new goals and new people. And still, you haven't really found that one thing so significant to you. Still, not in your presence. So you go in search again, finding it, searching for it high and low, perhaps losing pieces of your life along the way too. We very well know sacrifices are inevitable.


You can't have everything.


This statement has been proven wrong last night,


to me, from me, by me.


What I have been searching for, it has been under my nose all along. I can't believe how stupid I was. How panic & guilt could drive me to a point of rash decisions. Super silly dumb rash decisions.


They say, you can't have everything.


They are so wrong.


Well, everything came to me in the form of a human being & I can never be more grateful.


I love you Nurul Atiqah Bte Rozali



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